✖the frame of ocean's mind✖

all about wait

2012-02-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

heard that the MOM[ministry of manpower,sg] stopping ppl from goin in.

so, this is why im still under pending.

wait wait and nothing else, WAIT

got opportunity to apply hotel.

which i wanted all the time.

finding and planing to go for it.

wish me luck.

heart mess

2012-02-01T13:47:00.002+08:00

need to wait another week again.

everything is so slow.

non-stop waiting.

after job then room prob.

sigh,why it is so hard to rent a room.

opps,should say why it is the room so fucking expensive?

so tired with this.

really.

hardly to take this.

mental goin to breakdown.

Dislike

2012-01-28T17:47:00.002+08:00

i have never hate a country so much.

so suffering being there.

suckish fucktard

finger crossed***

2012-01-18T11:43:00.002+08:00

called HR early in the morning.

she say not yet got my detail.

2 more day left.

how would my day goes?

heartsink

old woman

2012-01-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

why you keep pushing me?
i already told you but u just keep being the typical s'porean.

cant u just give me sometime to breathe?

i also want it fast but i cant able to do anything more.

what u want me to do?

can u be abit more consideration on others.

im trying my best as well what.

damn.

gosh

2012-01-15T22:00:00.003+08:00

everything isn't that pretty.

merlion city is not what i plan for till my training take place.

i try to took as a stepping stone and im sure this is not my destination.

what is my final destination?

i don't know.

but im sure and hope not MERLION.

maybe some of the ppl will say just a starting point, don't so negative.

but i do Sigh everyday.

not yet stable perhaps.

im giving myself a very big pressure which i cant push away.

im not happy.

at all.

decide

2012-01-05T16:29:00.002+08:00

after thinking and all those emoing

i feel like changing

my job.

hopefully they able to make it goes smooth is all i wish.

finger crossed once again.

emotion

2011-12-31T14:55:00.001+08:00

year end

everyone planing back to baby town

celebration

me, the only one who need to away

though i already knew

but still

emotion occurs

feelings up and down

may this feelings go away asap

week

2011-12-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

already start a new life.
don't really able to adapt.
had a very hard time.
more than a week and will going back after work tomoro.
not much feel about that but i wish there will be more E while coming back.
life starts and all i wish is time flies!
flies faster and made me don't think about it.
[how i wish it flies till the 21st of Dec of 2012.]
training and life goes on.

new life

2011-12-19T22:45:00.002+08:00

got an interview today and they wishes to start asap.
a good start and also hard for me.
afterall, feeling was abit mess.
a new life had begin.
finger crossed everything will b fine!

heard

2011-12-16T20:27:00.002+08:00

God heard!
God listen to me!
a very good start!
everything will be fine!

God bless

2011-12-15T01:17:00.000+08:00

may God bless everything goes well.

please.

finger cross*

comforlessness

2011-12-11T00:44:00.002+08:00

uncomfortable feeling keep annoying me the whole day.

i feel so unwell.

how could i take this feeling away

it is so disturbing.

gahhhhhhh!!!

move onwards

2011-12-01T16:23:00.002+08:00

after graduation,after a lil episode or whatsoever and a week of relaxation.

is time to get back to reality.

need to move on to another chapter of life and never stop walking.

accept the real world.

wish everything goes smooth.

i hope it does!

finger crossed*

cold war

2011-11-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

huge cold war.

i admit theres my fault in timing.

watsoever.

im out.

2011-10-27T02:05:00.000+08:00

What's on your mind?

Please don't make a fool on me.

life

2011-10-22T02:05:00.002+08:00

life isn't fair.

life will not fair.

no matter how bad it is.

it still life.

no one gonna walk your life.

you need to go by your own.

when shit comes,

take a deep breathe and life goes on.

mentally breakdown

2011-10-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

im so regret.

regret of telling.

u told the whole family about it.

which i don't wish at all.

i told u is because i respect u.

but now...

how will i gain others from u?

i know u worried.

but theres a limit.

please.

i really wanna collapse d.

please pushing it so hard.

gosh!

the more

2011-10-14T20:11:00.001+08:00

ur advice is advice

i receive and i knew.

please don't keep repeat repeat and repeat.

the more you repeat the more you pushing me away.

why

2011-10-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

why.

i want try it out like i say.

i like to think alot.

like you know me for the first time.

but why u just don't stand at my side?

i wish

2011-10-10T02:43:00.002+08:00

i wish i won't like the negative parts of others couple do.

i wish i like the positive parts of others couple do.

i wish everything ok and fine.

i wish u r the one.

i wish u wont be like them.

i wish you were.

officially

2011-10-10T02:37:00.000+08:00

in a relationship

last day

2011-10-01T06:21:00.002+08:00

today is the last day to meet my friends and it is also the start of new life and challenges ahead.

mix up feelings.

friends and family

2011-09-28T13:08:00.000+08:00

i heart my family and friends more than anything.

great

2011-09-28T00:41:00.000+08:00

nice one! fucking awesome yet incredible! excellent.

seems to be

2011-09-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

you seems controlling your frustration.

seems.

from what i feel.

maybe shouldn't i be so awake.

it keeps bothering me.

damnit

exhausted

2011-09-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

mind fuck up with busy week.

mind and soul out of order.

am i

2011-09-16T10:13:00.002+08:00

i almost guess what will be asked.

and that thing also been guessed correctly.

but i don't know what to do.

as those who close to me know why am i so feeling unsure.

and yes im scared.

and i hate this alot.

damn!

mess

2011-09-11T20:15:00.001+08:00

im not sure what feeling am i having now.

yes or no.

the ques keeps appearing.

all in mess and keeps bothering me.

i don't like this unsure situation.

chicken hearted* appears again.

fuck!

× the first time

2011-08-30T18:08:00.002+08:00

i remember the face expression u gave me.

the frustration is there.

and it won't find in other friends.

maybe it just because we are close.

but this ain't the first time u treat this.

it hurts.

alot.

and i hate it.

back with a short dot

2011-08-20T01:07:00.003+08:00

hey guys!

recently busy with Ramadhan buffet.

too tired to keep update.

and theres grandmama buffday celebration.

Tomoro.

and a feel just came back.

argh.

i know i shouldn't have this but is just uncontrollable.

sigh*

weak

2011-07-15T22:23:00.001+08:00

im being weak for today

finally i tears

and 2 of my friends saw

i need to handle it in a better way

cheers and chill

endure made a better day

right decision

2011-07-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

am i making the right decision

this is the ques im asking to myself every since i pick this course

and im sure my mates does

i know i MUST fight and endure for it

free breathe needed

no one can help

pissed

2011-07-03T20:33:00.002+08:00

same

waited at the taxi stand for half and hour more.

how great am i for waiting people huh?

if like others surely buzz like no body business right?

great!!

like a stupid standing there.

some more no chair or anything,just like a sohi there.

some times i just angry with myself why i wanna wait?

im tired.

for the godness sake.

im deeply exhausted.

即使爱国也得实话直说

2011-07-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

做人不能太天真，以为这个社会是完美的；

不要以为成天为别人定标准的人，自己就会遵守那些自己为别人定的标准。

真实生活里，很多时候都要感慨，不要以为讲真话别人就会认同；不要以为那些什么星光大道歌唱比赛的毒舌评审受欢迎吃得开，是因为他们讲真话，如果不是参赛者发明星梦，知道他们的前途操在这些评审手上，多少人会认真把评审的话当着是金科玉律。

如果不是唐太宗后特别恩准，让谏臣可以畅所欲言皇帝进谏，魏征早已成为奸臣，真么可能会青史留名呢？

道理就是，如果您没有生杀大权，或者没有免死金牌，如果要讲真话，您还得三思而行；否则的话，您不只惹人恼讨人厌，还可能遭到万剑穿身，遍体鳞伤，甚至死无葬身之地。

但，不说真话，行吗？

明明您说话口吃，能把您说是口齿伶俐？

明明您是东施效颦，能说您是沉鱼落雁吗？

明明您是不学无术，能说您学富五车吗？

谁人敢说能这么说，那肯定是在骗您，因为您喜欢给人这么骗。

反过来，如果您能口诺悬河，却把您说成口舌迟钝；

或者您如闭月羞花，却把您说成不堪入眼；

再或者您才高八斗，却把您说成平庸愚钝，这肯定就是存心不良要害您。

不说真话，就等于不是骗您，就是害您，这个道理简单得很。说了真话，可能会伤了您玻璃般脆弱的心，但是于事有补，对您有益啊！

当然，有些人不是不喜欢真话，只是不喜欢直话，因为斯文人喜欢犹抱琵琶半边脸；

比方说您考试的了三十分，不能说是三十分，以为话太直会伤人，应该说您之差七十分就一百分了；

再比如您长得不真么样，只能说您没有西施那么美；谁人不这么弯弯转转说话，就是没有建设性。

果真讲话就没有建设性吗？说您学养不足，还得画蛇添足叫您去进修吗？

说您语文能力不够，还得苦口婆心叫您去上语文课吗？

说您人脉不广，还得鼓励您去面子书交朋友吗？

您不是没长脑筋吧？？————东方

party or war

2011-07-01T19:03:00.002+08:00

back to hell.

but a party is having just now.

which is a socalled zombie vs demons.

both side war-ing.

and the monster around was just stunt.

should it consider a great day to the monster also.

angel save monster life.

wish angel not hurt that bad also.

pray hard**

last day

2011-06-30T20:24:00.001+08:00

today is the last day at baking side.

and tomoro im goin to hell again.

for 3 months.

mood swing

2011-06-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

pms

im not sure whether is 100% female out there will having mood swing on their once a month Special week.

also im not sure about whether this time am i really having it right now.

received a message from mom through facebook.

tears flow with every single sentence read.

is a long time i didn't felt this way.

even though when my mom went overseas for the second time.

she did alot for us.

and i know well.

too many stuff comes together and hardly could explain my feelings now.

i love her but don't call me to speak it out.

im just stuck.

first time as well

2011-06-10T18:15:00.002+08:00

a great ones~

another first time

2011-06-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

got splashed rain water by a stupid van.

the day after the very last paper

2011-06-03T12:24:00.002+08:00

having the last paper of most probably everyone's FINAL.

was hanging out everyday and appreciate the time together.

till the nex day,when i wake up...

i feel the stuffiness.

separate after times together.

feeling of miss and lack of time.

there always ain't enough time.

always be.

darlinks be in heart!

continue my FIRST from April

2011-06-01T01:28:00.002+08:00

oh yeshhhh

get my very first done finally

and yet it aint that hurt as i thought

and it also not that i plan for these long time

just get it in a very hasty way

anyway

that is a good start

to someone who envy yet bitchy

2011-05-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

People are gonna talk about me, especially when they envy me, I might as well let them talk, because I affected their lives, they didn't affect mine!

No one is normal, there are just a lot of weird people with things in common.

Here I am; if you don't like me, the worse for you.

All the ways you wish you could be, that's me, I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck, I am smart, capable, and most importantly, I am free in all the ways that you are not. ~ Fight Club

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.

At the end of the day, if they hate you, then forget them.

Our lives are shaped by those who love us and refuse to love us.

I don't try to be candy coated. I don't try to walk on eggshells. I am what I am. Love me or hate me. ~ Pink

Live right now, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

Maybe some people just aren't meant to stay in our lives forever, maybe some people are just passing through. It's like some people just come through our lives to bring us something, a lesson we need to learn, and that's why they are there.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I need, I fear, I cry, and I know you do the same things too, so we're really not that different me and you.

You have to be yourself. Be very honest about who you are. And if people like you, that's fine. If they don't, their loss.

We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done.

If you want to be different, try being yourself.

I know I'm not perfect. I can't pretend to be, but before you point your finger make sure your hands are clean.

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

Look at me. You may think you see who I really am, but you'll never know me.

First they ignore you. Then they laugh at you. Then they fight you. The you win.

From this day on... when I look back on the past... I will smile... and say to myself... I never thought I could do it... but I did... I over came all the people who tried to bring me down.

I'm trying to make myself better, and this time - I'm doing it for me, so stop bringing me down, - I'm not the person you want me to be!

Some people try to understand, but nobody can know what living like this is like.

No one can see the pain what we hide, they're happy for us to keep it inside, our fear is our own; they don't want to know. Why should we involve them; why should it show.

I don't care what you think of me... it couldn't be half as bad as what I think of you.

hello doolies!

2011-05-28T15:07:00.001+08:00

hey everyone out there!

my blog is so dead now.

anyways,cant wait till monday to meet all my chickas there!

miss them lots!!!

new ones

2011-05-15T16:44:00.001+08:00

a ridiculous one.

not fully well known.

will it be?

my wish, 50 50

for real

2011-05-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

not much time for keep updating my lovely blog.

once i get back to home,shower,checked fb then sleep.

this is all i can do.

will update whenever im free to okies.

first prob

2011-04-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

yeah,as usual.

here comes the PROBS.

again for the FIRST

2011-04-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

first time ever back ON TIME.

first time

2011-04-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

work from 8am-11pm

first time overtime till this late here and function is fun.

first time didn't went back home while there is work tomoro.

first time drink in blur situation.

first time i slept couple of hours and being so sober.

yday workload is like heaven and today is like hell.

this is life.

peace ftw*

first off day

2011-04-10T12:11:00.002+08:00

im having my first off day

like finally i get mine after the "suffering"

anyway,i like working life which just working sleep working sleep

how GREAT is that huh

although it might tired or whatsoever

im definitely gonna enjoy this

gah yao my fellows beloved friends

first function

2011-04-08T00:03:00.002+08:00

is the second day for my training.

and there is a function for 700 pax.

Raffles college graduation also fashion show.

handling and non-stop refill is great which you can meet with handsome.

but in the other hand,

u need to carry a few kg glass pastries plate and refill the counter is extremely tiring.

few times i almost thought that im gonna drop the plate which is so damn f heavy.

was wondering who the god sake creating these stuff.

was scolding the whole runtime.

but anyway, lots of angmoh and handsome to wash my eyes.

^^ teehee. =x oppsie

first ORIENTATION

2011-04-04T23:10:00.002+08:00

my very first orientation which i thought i won't have one in my life time.

[at least college]

is all about history of the company and other brands they own.

also know that the full name of A&W is Alice and Williard.

get many information but yet kinda tiring to walk through cold and hot cold and hot again.

making me dizzy.

another day again for tomoro

gonna see how it goes

the very first post

2011-04-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

the first post for the month

also for my very first coming internship

starts few hours later

finger crossed it goes smoothly and problemless

good luck to myself and also beloved darlinks,guys

love yea always

deceive oneself as well as others

2011-03-31T16:43:00.002+08:00

no matter what i told or say

the one who know the fact still my heart

wanna own you badly but thats impossible

i clearly understood

time needed

give me more please

last trip in college

2011-03-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

monday back from penang trip.

too tired and rest until now only blog bout it.

drink drank drunk; shake it;laugh it;fooled it;enjoyed it;crazy trip

this is what i can say.

everyone came back with tired and sexy voice~

bcoz of 4 black label,not enough sleep,food and weather.

anyhow,is still a great awesome trip!!!

♥ till max!

throat ulcer

2011-03-25T01:29:00.002+08:00

having ulcer in my throat.

FUCKING PAIN!!!

for this godly first time!!!

help~~~~

go for own path

2011-03-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

2 more days for us to get along in the class.

after that,we all going for industrial training with less contact.

sooner or later,from a big big group and it will goes and become smaller and smaller group.

no more crazy shit together or whatsoever blow water session.

everything we got and had from the pass 2 years gonna stamp on my mind.

either sweet or bitter,there always be the best in my life.

i love you guys 1516!

enough is enough

2011-03-20T03:45:00.002+08:00

he already a man who can be people's grandfather already.

he know what to do and not to.

he will find his way if he cant able to solve.

1 time of persuade and advice is enough.

whether to listen or not is up to him.

not dun't want to help,but is helpless.

useless to talk much.

im done with these and im quit.

stop these and bye.

crossed

2011-03-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

finger cross for the interview tomoro.

BIG BIG GANG

2011-03-17T03:19:00.002+08:00

having my very last final college exam on tues and wed.

in the after noon of tues,wc suggest to go for dinner after wed's exam.

so we invite everyone in the class except malay,indian and some ahem.[due to the place we go and communication error]

decided to create an event on fb for double confirm and invitation.

afterall, informed that the place we plan to go are closed on that day.

so we changed the location.

after some brain cell dead,location confirmed.

10+ cars go along.

around 50 Freak make noise in the restaurant.

bit of mood off with some small reason.

anyway,this is such a good gathering with 50 guys for dinner!

i bet there is not much ppl own this opportunity~

hehe

crazy photo taking from the beginning.

love it max and really look forward to it although i think that is a damn hard for it to come true~

anyway,

an unforgettable moments save in my heart.

insomnia

2011-03-11T05:08:00.002+08:00

fall asleep around 3am but got awake at 4am

once awake,cant fall asleep again due to the strong heartbeat

my heartbeat are kinda weird recently

hard to control

no matter how many time of deep deep breath also cant able to calm it down

it is 100 times more suffering then heartbroken

and even suffer for the one who love to sleep

i need a good sleep

or maybe i need some alcohol to help instead of sitting down here

im feeling uncomfortable

finger crossed*

2011-03-09T03:14:00.001+08:00

wish everything goes smoothly.

crossed*

uncomfortable

2011-03-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

not feeling alright

am i sick

or worry

been so down for the whole day

is so uncomfortable

someone help me

spirit

2011-03-08T02:24:00.002+08:00

can u just stop appearing on my mind

i don't need a spirit to follow me whenever and whatever

just end it

whore

2011-03-07T16:52:00.003+08:00

why there is such a shameless whore in this world?

aisk!

polluted the environment and peoples family.

we have endure you and let you do what u wanna do outside.

as long you are not come into this freaking HOME

[although you already did]

now,you want more.

PLEASE check your triangle eyes face before you force people to divorce.

this is family problems and not yours!

what fresh carrot skin are you?

why are you so desperate?

there is so many uncle there walk at the town why don't you go find them then?

[if you want bigger or huge there is many cow in the town also]

[finger rabbit a not bad recommendation also]

all you want is to get fucked.

so just go ahead and stop find family man,shameless whore!

i know

2011-03-06T23:15:00.001+08:00

yes

i know very well.

but i just need time.

no matter how

2011-03-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

night out with family recently.

sis going back soon.

although there is nothing really special happened.

but still there is gathering for us.

the time that being together,get together and laughter.

but soooon.

end is coming.

happy moment are always the shortest one.

when wrote the shortest words,

also remind me of my time in my institute.

same,

laughter argument craziness bosongness

everything. . .

a full stop gave the ending.

what a life.

chuck away

2011-03-05T03:47:00.002+08:00

keep appearing on my mind.

hard to chuck away the missing.

although i know that won't be a good overcome.

but human being stages.

A must to have these.

i wish you do have a heart for me too.

not as i thought

2011-03-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

as i thought i will be kinda shy to get with you.

but actually after all.

i feel not that bad.

i think we might not be together or we might not match,

but there is better.

i like we all being together.

like sister and brother.

problematic

2011-02-27T03:34:00.001+08:00

untheEndable problem.

family issue.

again.

same stuff.

who cares?!

drama-ing

2011-02-26T23:20:00.001+08:00

please larh.

stop drama-ing here and there.

you are great actress since the family is there.

stop it please.

i already done with it larh.

sick of it.

2011-02-26T03:17:00.002+08:00

am i wrong for the first steps?

i want more now.

i wish more.

keep controlling.

i shouldn't do this.

no ruin no mess up nothing change

moodless mood light up again

2011-02-26T01:12:00.002+08:00

since when the last im having the laughter that is sincerely laugh from the bottom of my heart?

there is no movie that make me really LMAO nowadays.

day go by day

so fast yet furious?

nothing but keep emoing.

fucktard myself.

unknown

2011-02-24T16:57:00.003+08:00

i like the feel from you.

but. . .

the way you treat others are great too.

don't dare to take further guessing.

not brave enough with no confident me.

stages

2011-02-24T01:39:00.001+08:00

the feeling is still there.

a trip

2011-02-23T01:23:00.003+08:00

having a trip to sungkai this morning then back to baby town after that.

many stalls that i usually eat and favorite food didn't open.

feeling like didn't get them a great trip and a well ending.

anyway,thanks them for giving a day like this!

i love you guys!

♥

dermographism?

2011-02-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

got dermographism before dinner.

damn itchy!

for the whole body!

gosh!!!!

first time ever having such hyper condition!

goshhhhhhhh!

someone help!

sudden post

2011-02-17T01:28:00.002+08:00

kinda long time with this feeling.

secretly.

i know is better to stay at this situation.

but i wish more.

---------

CNY praying

2011-02-10T23:59:00.002+08:00

outside bombing fireworks like cats and dogs.

so envy them who able to celebrate.

this is the second time i didn't celebrate these.

but this is the first time im urge for celebrating.

feel so sad that cant able to burn those dead note and lighten the big huge tanglung together.

not the well feeling as i thought

2011-02-09T02:12:00.002+08:00

well,perhaps this year Cny should be a great one for me.

almost everyone from overseas came back for this celebration.

but. . .

this celebration aren't my favorite at all.

maybe these due to the separated family "issue".

this celebration should be awesome if everyone can celebrate together without any argument or whatsoever unhappy stuff.

but this won't happen for my whole life.

yes, is great that everyone is back.

but is so hard to recover after a short happy days.

this happen since early secondary days.

trying hard not to exposed this "stupid" feelings because they hardly came back and i know they want great holiday like i do.

i do enjoy some days.

but happy great days are always Godly short. why it is so cruel to give me few days of Heaven feeling and go to the Hell after that short while? im not happy at all.

around the corner

2011-02-02T13:14:00.002+08:00

shouldn't i say so.

30th night of Cny today.

without any feel of Cny.

many ppl came back but kinda tired with these sometimes.

too big family ain't great tho.

tired with all those talking craping.

Cny,is just the day for me to fill my pocket and meet those crazy beloved only.

other than that,who give a damn?!

anyway,i even forgotten today is the Reunion Dinner.

sorry if i ruin your day with this post.

Happy Chinese New Year.

hi

2011-01-28T20:10:00.002+08:00

hehe
seems so strange to write a blog post from a laptop that not belong to me.
anyway,been so busy for shopping,walking,eating and some other shit at OZ.
grow fat,got tanned and get muscles from here!
will going back few days after but Indonesia's dunno which Volcano seems going to erupt soon.
finger cross after few days only erupt orelse i cant back to M'sia.><
anyway,Happy Chinese New Year and get more Ang Paos yea!
will try update soon!
<3

whatever

2011-01-12T18:03:00.000+08:00

whatever happens,what problems idk.

im going off lur~

take care guys!

gosh!

2011-01-12T16:50:00.002+08:00

why is it so damn 9 many problems geh.

know how to blame this blame that.

but does you guys think about others?

why you guys so damn selfish one?

not in money way but the way you threaten.

i know there is problem in "this"

but please think twice before u do or judge anything please.

don't act like a kid can?

baiser!

pack!

2011-01-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

yeah

drag till the last night only willing to pack my stuff.

gosh.

sweat like no body business man!

tired.><

how?

2011-01-11T18:31:00.001+08:00

having light flu 2 days before my departure date?!

DAMN

how im gonna travel like this?

please be good please!!!

finger cross*

quick post

2011-01-09T13:14:00.002+08:00

finally get my check up!

Thanks God nothing happen to my retina~

but i have a sensitive eyes and dry like no one else~

phewww~

everything fine liaw~

woohoo!

check up

2011-01-08T00:23:00.003+08:00

after couple months of waiting,

tomoro is the day to get my eye check up.

eye doesn't feel well these days.

easily tired and dry.

wish no surgeries needed.

finger cross*

since

2011-01-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

since you get into this line,we are close enough.

sometimes we having problems,you're there.

sometimes you having problems,we're there.

[sometimes you don't willing to speak it out we don't force]

but. . .

i feel something recently.

something that i wish im not that sensitive.

im not sure whether just me or she or everyone.

but just different from last time.

feel like you don't really wanna get to us already.

feel like you don't really care about being with us already.

feel like you don't really tolerate already.

feel like you just not into us already.

i know there for sure will be some argument or whatever conflict it happens sometimes but that is just so got me tired every time.

should i really need to care with every of this?

i appreciate every single friendship whenever it is worthwhile for it.

but i just go exhausted.

i don't like seeing you guys get pale on your worries.

[maybe i cant help but you can just make yourselves comfortable-speak it out]

we willing to listen and this is what friendship for.

i'm speechless to think about it only sigh*

whatever and who cares

[although i really cares sometimes]

feeling

2011-01-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

read few blogs and decided to wrote this post.

a relationship effected friendship.

a very best friend relation changed because of a 3rd party.

i think this situation is very common already.

but still there is a mix feeling.

did you guys ever feel like losing a friend after they got their relationship?

should we really got our priority to grab our friend?

not fully took them as ourself but the time we together.

should we suppose to fight for the friendship?

OR should we just let them be and be prepare whenever the touch wood situation happen?

sometimes that case will just be like we are being used although you don't really care bout that.

is this the feeling from me which is S/A?

i don't think so.

comparison

2011-01-04T16:36:00.002+08:00

just back from berjaya university and gardenia factory.

put away berjaya university and say about gardenia.

it is so much different compare to high5 and gardenia factory.

high5 management sucks and the people are sucks too.

gardenia label all to make us understand although we don't really stand together and staff are friendly too.

gosh,there is much more stuff but hardly to tell it by writing it out.

should take sometimes to experience it.^^

tired days and i wish i able to wake up for my fermented beancurd~

bye guys~

stud

2011-01-02T01:52:00.001+08:00

should i take it off?

heart 1516

don't really wanna let it be.

gahh.

fullstops

2010-12-31T23:06:00.001+08:00

a great ending for a year.

got some compliment from guys!

at least not a sad-ness ending.

last day

2010-12-31T22:05:00.003+08:00

back from doing CNY cookies which just sleep 9 hours in 3 days.

New year eve today.

go nowhere.

stay and hanging out with family and lappie.

don't feel like joining the hectic city.

feel like chill at somewhere but no frens.

how sad.

anyhoo, HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!

moodless button ON

2010-12-26T18:39:00.002+08:00

doesn't feel great recently.

as u can saw all my previous post are mostly in either emotional or sad-ish post.

today,same.

didn't feel good.

something keep dragging my mood down.

i have no idea what is it.

my heart just doesn't feel hyper.

uncomfortable.

a very one.

inhale or exhale.

feel like heart dropped till stomach already but i still don't no why is it happen like that.

am i so weak?

i don't wish that.

big sigh*

i wish to get a deep breathe after new year.

sadness post i wish it just for 2010.

stop following me and that is it.

expected

2010-12-24T18:23:00.002+08:00

as i expected
there must be something that make me cant really in the mood.
every single time also does this.
im scare of expected something.
whenever the higher expectation,there must be something that drag me down.
why is it a Must to happen?
why there must be a problem occur?

sorry dudes and babes if im not the one who know last time.
the expectation is another nightmare of me.
is just cant wipe away.
=|

anyway,
Merry X'mas everyone!
love yea.
XOXO

am i?

2010-12-23T18:13:00.001+08:00

feel something.

r u hiding?

or am i over sensitive?

finger cross it wont happen ok.

please.

sorry

2010-12-22T20:05:00.002+08:00

sorry to myself for being so depress recently.

sorry to myself for being E.

sorry to myself for being sad without anything/nothing.

sorry to my buddy that im not in a good mood.

no in the mood

2010-12-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

after practical of the day.

a sudden mood drag me down.

no idea what happen.

just cant really get the hyper mood.

the body is just like someone have taken my soul or mood.

and left the shell of me.

tired of something.

college perhaps.

no expression at the mean time.

no laughter.

no strength.

no heart.

the wizard

2010-12-18T05:07:00.000+08:00

lil wizard appear.

im trying to hide it as possible as i could.

i wish i can make it again.

maybe this going to be a tough wan.

i trust myself i can go through it.

definitely absolutely a MUST!

good luck to myself!

♥